This was something I wrote shortly after first meeting my wife. March 5th, 2009. There was a woman in my life who had captivated me more than any other at that point.
I had finally found someone who could take her place and so wrote this. She has read it, we are no longer in touch.
There is a line in there similar to my wedding vows. I did not know until recently re-reading this poem. I think it shows consistency in what I was looking for in a partner.
Stubborn Heart Part Two.
To you, to the one who may have lost me.
To the one I will love for the rest of my life.
I miss you now,
I missed you then,
And I will miss you soon.
I miss your smile, the cute one, where your lip curls a bit and you look like a turtle.
I miss that curly hair of yours, the tight spirals tend to draw me right into those eyes.
Yeah, the blue ones you had to remind me about that one time.
Those orbs of crystalline blue that pierce my heart.
And your hands?
Damn babe, the first time I held one I felt self-confidence for the first time!
Girl everything about your body puts my head in a swirl,
But that’s not what I miss the most.
You, your presence, what you bring to me when I’m around you.
Baby you lift me up, enlighten my day, and make each and every second better than the last.
I miss you now,
I missed you then,
And I will miss you soon.
I feel as I leave, a piece of me will be left behind, I leave it here, with you, in this poem.
And I will take with me my love for you.
But don’t think I’ll forget what you do to my head,
Girl you can make my blood boil!
And I still need to see you.
You can make me punch holes in metal doors!
And I still think about you seconds before I fall asleep.
You are my rock, sponge, barrier, arch-nemesis, friend,
and the only true-love I have known in life so far.
I love you.
I do and don’t want to find someone else.
But I don’t have to be a Bridesman you know,
Sometimes as we get older we can support the needs of those we love better.
I know I can treat a girl much better now than when I was a
Freshman, Virgin, self-hating… well I’m still a nerd though.
I know you will miss me as I do you.
So I may be out of sight, but I am always with you.
I miss you now,
I missed you then,
And I will miss you soon.
Thank you for reading.
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